* amazed *

today is a completely amazing day. actually, the last couple days have been undescribable. my creator and lord is so faithful and lavishes His love and gifts on me with incredible accuracy. he gives good gifts! have you ever felt like you are living in a dream where the most incredible thing happens to you, and then it just keeps getting better and better to where you can hardly contain it?

it happened. i am hoping that part of the reason that God trusted me with another to care about is because he trusts me with the love that He and i have. it may have taken me all this time to finally get to where i will never sacrifice what He and i have.

imagine if a candle were a person...it stays where you set it...when you light it it stays lit...it's purpose is to give off the most beautiful light...it changes the atmosphere immediately while it is burning...it burns never asking for anything in return...many times the aroma is entrancing...and ultimately it gives itself completely out for you. even when it is blown out the smell of it going out spreads to the entire house and makes you glad you lit it. that is the way i want my life to be, like a candle. is there really anything more beautiful than a candle burning? i know without a doubt that i have been granted something that you "can't hold a candle to."

a quote i happened upon today that puts it all in perspective, "In every man there is something which to a certain degree prevents him from becoming perfectly transparent to himself; and this may be the case in so high a degree, he may be so inexplicably woven into relationships of life which extend far beyond himself, that he almost cannot reveal himself. But he who cannot reveal himself cannot love, and he who cannot love is the most unhappy man of all." Soren Kierkegaard 1834-1855

the close to a perfect several days ~sigh~