The last day of the year, it feels like a lonely day to me. Everyone has things to do tonight and places to be, however, someone forgot that I was here. The phone has rang several times this morning giving me hope each time that someone remembered me, but they were all wrong numbers. It's just the passing of a year and tomorrow will be no different just because of tonight, will it? I'm not sure what happens on all the big holidays but those are the ones that I most notice that I seem to be on a deserted island and it seems like I am waiting for the a sailboat to come by and take me on a cruise around the world. I don't need or desire a rescue boat, I don't think I need rescuing, instead someone on that sailboat that will sail the world with me and enjoy the gentle winds and crystal seas of life. A sailboat of life steady and stable that you can guide, but yet allow the winds to blow you where it wants every once in a while.
Anyway back to today, a sterile day when you wonder what lifes all about and think that maybe it left you behind. You know better but it's just the feeling, like where is everyone. It's a day that you knew you should have worked a little harder on finding something to do tonight but it just came up to quick and you were holding out for the night with a special person that just didn't work out. Oh well, tonight will come and then it will be over and laying down in bed you can go to sleep and pretend that the night was just another night not a special one. Because for you it was JUST another night.